Support

Well, this week has been long and hard. I have had an additional surgery and I did very well; however, the anti-nausea medication that was injected into my IV did make me sick. This week all that could break loose did. What I really do not care for is the lack of support that I have gotten. I was told that perhaps that because I am such a [physically and emotionally] strong person, I do not look like I need the support. I do. I suppose that there are many who think that my daughter is helping me out and giving me the necessary support that I need. On the contrary, this has not been the case. This has been quite infuriating.

My emotions have been very tumultuous. I do not think that there are those that completely understand just how much this has bothered me. So I have asked: why is it that no one comes over? Why is it that no one calls? Why is it that I get the looks from people as though things are very different and strange? I do not know. I have been told that it is possible that it is because of fear. That explains a lot of things. But! It is very unkind.

So, now this is where I stand. I had some words, again, with my pastor. I love my church, but I am not in the arena to be guessing about what is available if someone can come over for help and things. I am tired and I need some human contact and conversation. This is difficult.

I had my appointment today with Radiant Care. I will be going to Chemotherapy first before I go to radiation treatment. So, this will be a total of 3 months with one and then with the other about 33 treatments. Oh, how much fun!

I am going to have many difficult days ahead of me and this is why. Until next time.