Well, today I returned back to work from chemo. It felt absolutely wonderful! Then, I went to church and helped to set up for Sunday service. Although this is only a few hours, it really felt awesome! I enjoy being physically active and I have to understand that I have limitations. That really sucks--I have a lot of adjustments to make without a lot of people knowing. I have to make it look good--or do I? I am usually a private person and do not like a whole lot of people to know what is going on. I did have a lot of fun though messing with one of the other gals. I really have to watch myself because it can be just so much fun to really razz. I know, Caren be good. Oh, I am! With so much fun to be had, I had better really keep my claws in. Poor Jaymie did not have a clue. Pastor says to "share"! Ha! Oh, this can be a whole lot of fun. How much do I want to share with them, fun wise, that is? Oh, this can be fun. Last weekend, I put in a 54 hour weekend and really did not bat that much. Then again, last weekend was very difficult and had to just get through. Now, with the steroids, I am not getting a lot of sleep. I will have 5 more treatments to go with the steroids on board and no sleep. Oh, I have better get ready. I feel like Joker on Batman--"wait til they get a hold of me". Hahaha.
But the idea of chemo is getting easier. I know that this has been freaking me out. I have 5 more treatments left and then I will have 33 treatments of radiation. I can do this! This is hard but it will come and go. I have to be prepared mentally, and physically.
Pressing on!
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