This is now almost a week after the chemo and I am just feeling incredible--in many ways. I am also finding that it is very exhausting eating. Who'da thunk how exhausting it is to eat? Well, I made a nice veggie dish and eating it slowly and nibbling on it. My stomach feels as though I have been doing hundreds of sit-ups without break. I am very tired but that is ok. Before I went to bed last night, I decided to take some pain reliever. That was a great idea! I woke up at about 5:30 am and was ready for the day. That was awesome! I went to bed at almost midnight last night after working on many things and got up at a decent hour. I prayed and relaxed last night and just was happy to be able to relax. While I am listening to Tenth Avenue North, I do believe that some of these chains have been broken. Yes, I still feel many emotions, but I have been set free! I am still some upset and angry about the cancer treatment, but not as much. This resolution comes with a lot of work. I am looking forward to more things completed.
I spoke with my little cousin about my Aunt's memorial. I do not like that I have missed things, but it is just for a short time. Summer will come soon enough and I will be able to travel and see everyone. I am so excited about that! That is my goal! To be able to see the doc and have it said that my last treatment will be on X date and then I will be free to travel in the fall. I am excited.
I am tired of crying. I am DONE! Emotions do not have me anymore. It is time to batten down the hatches! I am moving forward. I am tired of people looking at me as though things are just "pitiful" or other. I am going to press onward to my goal! My life has changed and I will work out my salvation with fear and trembling! GOD IS GOOD!
Pressing on! Pushing on! Peeving on!
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