Well, after a very long weekend, I got to work. Yes, having the flu and getting ready for work is just not my idea of fun. I had to take two days off because the little one was hitting the high notes with the "porcelain god". When I got to work, my dementia patient had the sweetest words for me--"hello beautiful". I cannot tell you how awesome that made me feel. While I do not share some of my feelings with others, others do know some of my feelings. This was the best gift today that I could ever get. I have my highs and my lows and from there some in-betweens. Why should I feel so? I am a straightforward kind of person. I would think that emotional roller-coasters should be left for the experienced. I am not. I hate my rocky emotions at times. I see the looks from others and feel that I need to provide a reason for the emotions. Duh! Emotional woman, news flash! Chill! Breathe! Let it out! It is not ok to hold it in. I have found out lately that I have been holding it in and that means a lot of trouble. I spent the day yesterday sparring, breathing, praying, concentrating, laughing and attempting to sleep. I could not eat much before the feelings of being nauseous came back. But hay! Tonight I get to take some pills for the chemo. Oh, am I just full of the big time! I have to keep myself anchored. I want to work more than ever. I do not want to run, but I sure would love to. Hard, long and fast! Hard, long and fast.
I will get through this. I will continue to press on. All things work for good for those who love the LORD. Pressing on.
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