Sometimes weekends feel like "enter the dragon" more than anything else. This weekend, I worked again. I am very tired and my migraine that I have had for the past week has been just unbearable. This has created more of confusion and challenge than anything else. I have not been able to concentrate on things like I should; however, I have gotten it done. This started Friday of last week and just started to take momentum to what I have now. I would love to be able to have some coffee right now but this chemo has messed up my stomach more. Although I have not tossed my cookies, I can tell that some foods are more aggravating than others. No, I have not taken an pills to help with being able to have some coffee. I would just rather not drink the coffee and be able to naturally manage. I have had some chamomile tea though and that has been good for me. Why I did not think of that before, I am not sure. Looks like tea is going to be my forte!
The house is cleaner. I now am down to the adult kitties and I am very pleased with that. The bill for cat food and liter will be a lot less. Too, having to worry about the "cat scratch fever" is lessened and I am not going to be so anxious about the clean up. I have to say that the noise is a lot lessened and the excitement of having these little critters is gone. It is amazing how so many people just do not get it. It should not matter if anyone understands cancer treatment; it is important that people offer a helping hand about what they need to do to help. That is the thing that gets me the most and I have to learn to get over that. I have to accept that the help will not be here like I would like it to. I have to prioritize my day to get the most out of it. This includes my computer and tv time. I do not spend as much anymore on the tv and I have been working on many things on my computer. I am reminded about how structured my days were when the little one was born. I feel that I need to get back to that kind of structure to survive.
Today, I have slept quite a bit. I have been able to rest, but it seems that the more that I lie down, the more tired that I am. I know that I am long overdue for some rest. I am working hard to get caught back up and to get ready for the next term. I am tried and tired. Seems that they should be on the same page, but that is what I am. Tried and tired. I am hoping to get that kind of structure again.
Pushing on. Pressing on. Working on.
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