Well, this has been the most interesting of them all. I am so tired from this chemo that I could just cry. Crying would not be good enough because of the energy that I would have to use to do it. Everything has been bothering me. The smells in the apartment and the stuffiness from being so tightly locked. I have tried to turn the heat off and let some air in but then again, I have had to get up and close the window because it has gotten cold. But, the air has been stirred.
I did not go to church today because I did not have the energy to go. To get dressed would have taken all of my strength and that would not be worth the battle. I was in bed so much today and that helped out a lot. I think that I slept about 6 hours today from it all. The chemo effects have really been noticeable. My energy level is gone, but I can eat. I refuse to be nauseous and vomit. I have not thus far and I will not. My mouth is starting to get sore from the treatment and so far, my skin looks ok. I have been keeping an eye on that. My nose is ok for the moment. I have been working hard on just keeping water going and that makes a huge difference. I have not had any coffee either and so that will add to my exhaustion. I am looking forward to getting a good cup of coffee.
I have been keeping my feet up and that is driving me nuts. I am going stir crazy and with no one to talk to, it is really keeping me on my toes. However, the cats have been keeping me busy and that can be another subject all its own. Go figure! I look around at their energy and want just a little touch of that. I will be happy when I feel a little more human instead of a lint ball. Stella has got to get her groove on!
I am working hard on getting my homework completed as well. This has been a huge source of my emotional battle. I feel like I am useless in things. I know that I am doing ok, but my emotions tell a different tale. I am looking forward to the end of this battle.
Pushing on. Pressing on. Battling on.
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