As I am approaching my next chemo treatment, #4, I am a little bit apprehensive about how I will be tolerating it. My previous treatment did not go well. After this treatment, I will have only two more to go. I am very excited about that for many reasons. The chemo treatments have been hard to deal with emotionally. I have noticed that my behavior has been more changed prior to the chemo treatments. The apprehension of the upcoming treatments is hard to bear. I am not looking forward to the treatment; I have a better understanding what a reaction does and can bring me. I am looking forward to never having to experience it again. It is amazing--if the disease does not kill you the treatment will.
According to the doc, the treatment can cause my hair to fall out and more nausea. Well, the hair is already out and the nausea will be something that I will have to see about. I pray that all will go well. I will have someone from the church with me for company and we shall see how things go. It is definitely going to be a long day.
I am feeling like I want to cry more and hard, but that will not make any difference regarding things. I have to keep myself in control. This week, my hormones have been raging as well. I have been experiencing more hot flashes as well. I had to put my head in the freezer to keep myself cool. After that, I got a bag of frozen beans and had to put that on my head to keep me cool. That has a mixed set of emotions for me. I am looking forward to the end of all of this.
Pushing on. Pressing on. Looking forward.
I understand that you are apprehensvie about your next treatment. Your last treatment terrified you and me too!! I was really scared when you told me about what happenned and I am really glad you were ok. I am praying that your next treatment would go well without any complications :) Hang in there, this will soon pass. Remember you are an amazing woman. Don't you forget that! I know I won't let you forget how strong and amazing you are! Take care 'coz I care Sis!
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