This past weekend has been very difficult for me. I had gotten the news that one of my friends who had been battling uterine cancer lost her battle. I was deeply hurt by this and am still. No one told me about it. No one told me. I knew that she was not doing well and was becoming more and more worried for her. But, she lost her battle on August 30. This is very difficult to hear. Was difficult to hear. I know that she is with the LORD and that is very comforting to know. But, I did not get to go to her service. That saddens me. Perhaps I was not told because it would have upset me so? Well, it did.
Then, I had to call the police on my own child. I had been suspecting that she has been stealing from me for a long time and now, I have had many things confirmed. I searched her bedroom. Then I had the opportunity to search her backpack. And, what to my surprise did I find? I found one of her pencil boxes used to store her pipe and an empty baggie. I cannot say just how much anger and bitterness that has been stirred from all of this. This has seemed to be a regurgitation from last year and the lack of strength and energy that I did not have. I was not able to do much let alone get to work. Now, knowing that my child has been mixed up in sordid events makes me ill. I realize that I must get past this and to work towards the solution. The solution is going to be very difficult and I must have a lot of courage and strength.
Too, this weekend started out with more illness. I had been to the doc's office and I have been told that I have two infected ears. That just bites so much. My discomfort has been noted and for this, I am very careful about my activities. I hate not feeling well and this has been added to my stress. I have been taking antibiotics for the infection and it has helped, but it has not completely gone away. In a few days, I will have another doc's apt and we shall see the progress.
Keeping it going for courage's sake.
Pressing on. Pushing on.
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