It has been several months since my last post. I am looking back now at the entire year. This month last year, I found my lump. I am looking back at everything with my eyes so wide open about so many different things. I have finished my chemo. That was hard. I have finished my radiation. (I have called it Vit R.) The burns have healed and I am back to "normal" with things. I feel quite like a new person; however, the oral meds that I am supposed to be taking had made me very sick. I had had a migraine for nearly two weeks without a break and it was bothering me something terrible. I look back and see just how tired I was and how compromised I was during the ordeal. I still managed to keep working and completing my daily obligations. However, I can say that I was not all that successful. My family and I have suffered from and through this ordeal. My daughter is very angry and the lack of communicaiton that has occurred during all of this. No one seems to be wanting to talk to her about this. She has seen me in pain and crying. She has not seen me in pain or crying except for this past year. One day at service, I had to step outside and cry. I was in so much pain and discomfort that she was very upset from my pain. No one knows what to say. No one knows what to do. My goal is to look forward to her getting some comfort and closure about all that is going on with other around us not helping. We are our brother's keeper and we should not let each other off the hook about their responsibility toward each other.
Pushing on. Pressing on. On with more passion.
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