Following up

This past couple of weeks ago, I had had another appointment with my oncologist. We are meeting now once every three months. This, I understand is part of the trek. I am not all that opposed to this. Going in to the building and passing by the infusion center is really something else. However, I did need to get blood-work completed and was ready for them. I had had lots of water to drink as well as had my hands warmed and ready to go. The blood draw was easily done and from there a good sample. My oncologist was very pleased to say that the numbers were excellent and from there we were good to go for another three months. But, I did get the speech from him regarding how my body is not "protected" from all of the hormone shots that I am not getting. So???? What does this mean? I know for certain that it means a lot. Because of all of the stress that has been going on with my kiddo, I have not been able to get to the appointments like I am supposed to. Not to mention, I have no intention of going through the emotional roller-coaster that comes with the hormone shots. I would have to really just live my life out in the back eight-million and not hope to get this again. I am very sensitive to all of the treatments and am not looking forward to it at all. I have expressed to my oncologist that I have been undergoing a lot of stress in the home and this is not at all conducive to any treatments.

Does anyone really understand what it means? I do not think that it really is something that I would like to say. No matter what, I look at all of this through the eyes of someone who has had a very difficult battle with others not helping. I really have to get beyond this, but I am having a difficult time with it. I am working very hard to be sure not to express it all the time. I supposed, I need to teach others. Just the same, when others ask what is going on, I am very careful how to respond. I am not all that excited over the fact that the stress continues. I look forward to some less stressful days and look forward to some more fun and relaxation. I am looking forward to the summer and some good fishing days. Perhaps, some days where I will be getting out and fishing by myself and having some great days out and about. I need to have some quality R and R.

I have been working on my book as well. It is slow coming but I am diligent to get it completed and to get it published. Yes, I have only told a couple people and now it is on the internet. I am working on my book. I am looking forward to publishing more, but I am looking forward to working less and smarter. Still, I am looking forward to getting things caught up and to bless others in the process.

Pushing on. Pressing in. Looking forward.