Still moving along

Today has been a very long day. Well, actually, the past 24 hours has been incredibly long. I have been working my usual graveyard shift and I am extremely tired. I am so tired that I am wired. What a strange feeling. Just the same, I have had very little sleep, if any. In a matter of a few hours, I will be home and I will be ready for bed. I will take my morning vitamins and off to "bed". I have seen an incredibly long day. I was able to make my ENT appointment and it was what I had expected. I am normal. Yes, do not laugh. I am normal. But, my ears and throat still hurt. The doc said that he could not see anything wrong with the exam; just the same, the pain persists. Yes, I have a clue as to what is going on. However, I must not let the worries and stress of post-chemo life weigh me down. Because of the chemo, I have some permanant side effects. My ears will be one of them. While my hearing is not changed drastically, I can tell the difference. The changes are subtle. In some aspects, I can hear some very strange things. My hearing is heightened. It is a pain in the rump; but, it is what it is.

I have to meet up with the neurologist now for the results of my MRI for my migraines. YES! post-chemo life is not the same. In many aspects, I am busier with medical appointments from all that the chemo/blood-sludge/toxic mud did to me. BUT! Praise GOD! I am pressing along. Too, I am really amazed at how much I am. I am still working and am really amazed at how I survived chemo and working. BY the grace of GOD I am here! I really have to say that. With all that I have to go through with medical appointments and the obligations that I have, it is amazing how I fit it all in a day. I get so tired and I get so filled up that I do not want to do anything else in a day. And I realize that I must do it. If people only knew what I did in a day. Well, perhaps, after these postings, they will. But, I do know that only a few people read them now. HA! It is a safe place to write my feelings down. It was very funny how PM had told me the last couple of weeks ago for me to "talk to someone". I have been quiet and that scared him, I suppose. But, there have been many things that have been going on. Silence is a good thing. It can be used to rely upon when the emotions are so bogged down. It is not a bad thing. It actually is a very normal and healthy compensation. I just do that again! It was interesting to see the response.

So, I am tired. I am looking forward to some sleep and getting my bedroom in order. I have several knitted and crocheted projects nearly complete for donation. I am looking forward to the donation!

Pressing in. Pushing on. Beginning more.