The days are long again. I have had strength enough to just get up and get the basics done. I am tired. I have had a migraine again for a week now and it has been exhausting me more than what I would even like to admit. I have been told that I am a strong woman; but, I do not feel like it. I go to work with this and no one knows how much I am tired and cannot endure much more. Yesterday, I drove to the airport when I had no strength in me to do it. But, I did it. I am not sure if I can do the return trip to pick the person up. This exhausted me more than I could say.
The time that I need to devout to homework is dwindling and I am frustrated once again. I have been able to get accommodations from the school to get my homework in late so that I would not lose points. But, this term, I have a professor who does not recognize what that accommodation is and has embarrassed me in front of the whole class. This point, I am uncertain about the remainder of the term. I have been working hard to get this far and it seems that the harder that I push, the harder it gets. The migraines that I get since chemo are just, at times, more than I have ever imagined. But, I have to keep going. I am looking forward to more. I am looking forward to the day that I have some more rest and I do not have to answer the phone.
My bills are catching up with me as well. I am one month behind in everything and catching up is going to cost me more in the long run. I am working diligently on all of my things and finances. I am working hard on getting all of this done. It looks like this month I will be needing to beg for money for my rent. I hate having to do that but it is what I will be needing to do.
I need not to be stressed. It does not help when I am that stressed. This type of stress only exacerbates me. I need to be working on my exercises. I hate being home and I hate being around the place. After everything that has been going on, I just do not find my home a place of solace. I do look forward to better days.
The new church that I have been attending has been good. It helps out a lot and I am supposed to get a support phone call from one of the ladies from church. But, that has not happened yet. I have spoken to PJ (yea, another one of those) and he says that he has already reminded the gal. I wonder. I am not going to worry. My head hurts from the constant pain. My everything has been so hard lately. I look forward to being able to just relax and to not have everything bother me so much. If my head did not hurt as much, then I would be able to be in a better mood. I am looking forward. It will be good.
Looking forward. Always hoping. Seeking solace.
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