For every season turn, turn, turn

For every season turn, turn, turn. Good song, but the application can really hurt at times. When I last wrote, I was being angered by some things that were not right at the church. Yes, two of the ladies have been a very interesting crew. Two persons who took it upon themselves to discuss personal information out of turn to each other. So, since then, I have been asked for forgiveness from one person and not the other. It seems that the other person has not appologized for their behavior. This is wrong. It has been a long year and what irritates me the most is the injustice behind what was done. Sure, we all do bonehead things; but, what we do with all of that is up to us. Are we going to change what we are supposed to change, or are we going to be willing to take some strong medicine and change things. I am willing to take some strong medicine and I am willing to give some strong medicine.

It has been a long and drawn out week. Last week, I had had an appointment with my OB/GYN. We were discussing some aspects of my care for the hormone suppression. All my adult life, I have had difficulties with my cycles and now, things are very much so pressing. The plans were that I was to get the shots. Well, that did not go as I had planned. Of course. The side effects were just too much and the emotional swings that I would get was too much as well. The hot flashes are continuing, thank goodness. But the Lupron that I was receiving were just that much more extreme. I cannot wait for this to be done.

So, I had asked that I could have my ovaries removed. If that were the case, then the danger of estrogen buildup in my body would be reduced and my other breast would be protected as well as other parts of my body. Well, that was going on to two weeks ago that I had had this appointment. The doctor said that she needed to speak to my oncologist and confer with him what was going on. She had said tht she wanted to get more information about my request and the outcomes of the rapid reduction of estrogen with respect to the treatments and the other stuff. I do not know how much I can take of this. I was asked if I had taken another drug and I had said no. The only drugs that were used were the tomaxofin and the lupron. Yuck!!! I really do not care for either one of those, but I was willing to just get this over with. So, I have not heard anyting back from either my oncologist or from the Ob/GYN. Makes you wonder. So much time is passing and it is good. I hate this journey, but I am learning to say much more with respect to what I have to do. I know that I have to continue with the journey. I have no choice. But, what I have noticed just the same is that the tension, stress and the added aggravation persists. I do not like that. Paperwork beyond all things and from that point, more doctor's appointments. I still have to get my other mammogram and a return visit with my neurologist. I have had so much other stuff going on from my kiddo that it has distracted me from all other things. I really am tired. Not just weary from all of the medical appointments, but from the whole journey of it all. I work still and it is tiring to go home and find out that things were not done and etc. But, now, recently, my kiddo has been acting out and that has been taking my time away. I need to be very diligent about that as well. I still want to continue to seek after what I want to do with my business and it is amazing to see just how much time I do have. Plus reading and studying my Bible. That is another thing that I plan on keeping track of.

Moving along. Turning. Journying on.